And Then Sushant Singh Rajput Killed Himself.

I still can’t come to terms with the fact that he is no more. Its been almost three weeks, and all I can say is, “Why?” It is ridiculous when people say he was murdered. I am sure he wasn’t. What assures me is the fact that this was a premeditated suicide. As per my understanding, he had already planned to end his life. How do I assume this? Because three days before he passed away, he cleared everyone’s dues and informed everyone that he wouldn’t be working with them anymore since he didn’t have any money left. Does that not prove that he was already ready to get away from the world?

But then there’s been reports that state he was murdered. And then I tend to wonder. Was he? People say this with conviction because of the rope mark on his neck, and the confounding fact that only three fingerprints were found on the rope- that of his little finger, thumb, and index finger. This is weird. It is impossible to hang oneself with only those three fingers. Some of his friends had come to his flat the night before he died. Did his friends help him commit suicide? Did he beg and plead them to help him end his life?

My heart goes out to Ankita Lokhande. She was the only person who loved him with all her might, unconditionally and selflessly. I was all about how they were happy together and how Rhea must have caused his death. I mean, I have seen Rhea from her Teen Diva days, and I know she is a nasty little girl. When Jia Khan’s mother said that Rhea was selfish and probably led Sushant to his death, I agreed with her. But we have to take a step back and try to understand what the poor girl must be going through – even though she could be a Mother Gothel.

She was interrogated for 9 hours! A case has been filed against her in the Bihar court, and she probably doesn’t have many people she can converse with, right now. I wouldn’t be surprised if she gets suicidal; then everyone will blame the next target – Mahesh Bhatt.

Maybe sometimes things are exactly what it looks like. Perhaps Sushant was indeed going round the bend, and he couldn’t take it in anymore. I mean, he heard voices, and I can only imagine what Rhea went through when she was watching a movie with Sushant, and Sushant told her that Anurag Kashyap was out to kill him. There’s always more than what meets the eye, and we all have to be unbiased. None of us know what’s happening in someone else’s life.

What can I say? I miss Sushant dearly. While most of us didn’t know him personally, we all feel the pain because we all loved him so much. and I still wonder, “Why?”

#Sushant Singh Rajput – The Real Actor.

“Be Kind”, said Ellen DeGeneres

ellenNews sites have been rife with news of how ‘kind’ Ellen has been. Hasn’t she? She’s given thousands a life worth living. She’s given millions of dollars across the 17 seasons. Yet, now people say that she is not what she claims to be. Do we believe that? Yes, we do. Because as viewers, the audience in her show, and takers of her generosity, we don’t know what happens backstage.

So when people working for her say that she’s mean, when not one, but a whole load of them say she is not what she displays, we do have to take a step back and ponder over that. Now here’s something that I think about when I read the news. Ellen lived a difficult life. She lost her girlfriend whom she lived with, she went through her own set of hardships, and it took immense strength, courage, and balls to get back in the limelight, tell the world you are gay at a time when no one spoke about in hush-hush tones either, and then rise to a stature of – whom do I quote here?  I don’t know.

I think the success and life she built for herself is commendable and cannot compare to anyone else’s. But here’s what I think. I believe that behind that whole mask of telling the world to be compassionate and kind is a complete set of raw emotions, ones she can never get over. All those pent up emotions (I know she became quite vocal about her thoughts, but who’s to say she has spoken about them all?) from all her years of difficulties is what makes her a version of Dr. Jeckel and Mr. Hyde. There’s a part of her that wants to do so much for the world because of the difficulties she’s been through in life. But it’s also those same difficulties and mockery she was a victim of that makes her a particular mean monster that people claim she is.

Come to think of it, aren’t we all like that? We all are at the end of the day human. If Nikkie from Nikkie Tutorials thought she deserved to be welcome with a whole lot of drama and fanfare, why should she? Has she done anything that people at a higher position who have been on the Ellen show have done? I don’t think so. I know this sounds very blase, but people like Obama, Michelle Obama, Jennifer Aniston, etc., come on the show and are so humble that it melts your heart to see humility in its essence.

What I am trying to say here is, an incompetent employee is bound to piss anyone off. Is the whole Ellen crew saying she sucked? No. Just some nincompoop who couldn’t impress her enough to gain her attention. So what? Big deal.

There’s bigger shit happening in the world now, and we are trying to drag someone like Ellen into the mud? That’s so not cool, I tell you. So do we believe she’s mean? Maybe she is, but does it matter? The amount of good she has done – be it for popularity or genuine concern – is enough to override all her meanness. Agree?

#Move On